knock, knock.

Within the past nine months i have had a complete makeover.
not a physical one, but emtionally.

nine months ago i had pretty much given up most things.

-family

-love

-school

-God

i wasn't focused in on any of those...they would just pass
in front of my eyes, in my mind, and leave. nothing could stick
to me, i thought the only thing i had that was true to me were
my friends.


but you see, God works in mysterious ways, and right before
i would of totally given up on everything and
fallen down...something happened.
something amazing, beautiful, powerful,
extrordinary, wonderful...



...Love tapped on my door, and i answered it.

there was no hestitation, no exceptions, all i knew was,
i was not running away, for once in my life...i was going
strongly for something i wanted.

my heart was beating...

my mind was set...
and there was nothing in this world
that could turn me back.
for looking into his eyes, hearing his voice, and seeing his smile...

...i set the rest of my life into his hands.

-i wasn't scarred

-nor worried

-nor lost

-or not even nervous

it was right. it felt right. it looked right. it was just right.
everything about him.
the way it all went.

how i felt.

his words.

his voice.

his eyes.

his smile.

his hands.

his heart.


that night, at that moment...i fell in love.
i fell completely, upwardly into love.
nothing could stop me.
no one could change my mind.

it just happened....

and it is beautiful.

so thank you, for saving me...for coming at the perfect time. you are my everything. i love you completely with all of my heart. thank you. thank you. thank you.

i love you chad edwin cuttill.

I LOVE YOU!