comfortability.

In life we all come in contact with things that make us uncomfortable (such as people, movies, situations, etc...) but do we still pursue those things in order for comfortability or is there a line you draw? If one thing is comfortable to someone else and not to you, do you continue in order to be fair with the other person, or should they not in order to not make you uncomfortable? What do you do when all your friends are comfortable with something, and you aren't? Are there things that take time to get use to, or take doing over and over to get comfortable with? Where is the line drawn? When should you be okay with being uncomfortable and not?

Please listen to this song.

"The Call" By Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
’Til it was a battle cry
I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
’Til they’re before your eyes
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

I am in love with everything in my life right now. Things are really good, everyone is really good. :)

i can't find you.

where are you? are you there?
i can't see you, even if your standing right in front of me.
you have lost the site of who you are,
what is important to you.
i know who you are, but where did you go?
there are things that you have said and
things that you have done...
but they are not you.
i know who they are, and maybe that
is where you are.
why are you there?
can't you see i am right here?
can't you see we are right here?
i don't want you to stay there,
but is that what you want?
to put the things that are important
to you, behind those that are of less importance?
i hope not.
open your eyes, and open your heart.
and listen to me when i say,
please come home.
i need you here.

Sent out early.

Too early for a new years resolution? Nah, I think not. There are actually a couple that I have in mind, ones in which I am certain I will actually follow through on. The first one being, probably one of the most common new years resolutions out there, exercising and eating healthy. I have actually been doing a pretty good job on the exercising part of this one, but coming out short on the eating healthy part. One of the main reasons I have found out as to why I do not eat as healthy as I should is time. In order to eat healthy, you actually have to take time to cook the right foods. Running from home to class to work makes that a sticky situation. However, I have come to find that if I just take fifteen minutes out of my morning, that gives me enough time to fix a good breakfast. Also, I want to be able to get up in the mornings and go for a run. I use to run all the time, then i started to work a lot and there are a lot of other excuses I could come up with... which none of them are good enough. Again, I just need to take the time...get up a little earlier, and just do it. Also the other new years resolution that I am going to make is going to church every Sunday. I have come to realize that yes I do need to work in order to save up money for college, but I do not need to work every Sunday morning. So I am willing to work every other Sunday morning... just as long as I can start going to church, some what on a regular basis. So these are my new years resolutions, stated and heard! Whats yours?

Taking a step back.

Many times I find myself questioning what is important to me. Is it what im wearing? What people think of me? How I talk? What I say? Who I put first? I use to care a lot about what people thought of me, to the point where I would dress to impress everybody, everyday. I would also find myself talking like the people I hung around with. Saying things like they would, acting as they did, or even saying something that I would normally not say just to make them laugh. I can see this going on around me all the time. I will admit, words that I have tended to use when I am around friends are not the most attractive set of words one could roll off the tongue. Im not sure why we use them, to sound cooler? older? Maybe to sound as if we really do not care what people think of the way we talk? Im not exactly sure, and I do not know if I will ever come to a conclusion. However, when I started to take a step back and actually listen to other people speak those words, I came to realize that it made them sound, well... pretty much dumb. That is when I really started to understand the vulgarness and immaturity in which those words possessed. And that is when I decided, those words were not for me. 

"Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.

Abstain from all appearance of evil."

-1st Thessalonians 5:21-22

...no time...

Since school has started I have really had no free time to write anything, hence there being no blog. As soon as time will allow, an update will occur, i promise :)