November 6, 2008
Taking a step back.
Many times I find myself questioning what is important to me. Is it what im wearing? What people think of me? How I talk? What I say? Who I put first? I use to care a lot about what people thought of me, to the point where I would dress to impress everybody, everyday. I would also find myself talking like the people I hung around with. Saying things like they would, acting as they did, or even saying something that I would normally not say just to make them laugh. I can see this going on around me all the time. I will admit, words that I have tended to use when I am around friends are not the most attractive set of words one could roll off the tongue. Im not sure why we use them, to sound cooler? older? Maybe to sound as if we really do not care what people think of the way we talk? Im not exactly sure, and I do not know if I will ever come to a conclusion. However, when I started to take a step back and actually listen to other people speak those words, I came to realize that it made them sound, well... pretty much dumb. That is when I really started to understand the vulgarness and immaturity in which those words possessed. And that is when I decided, those words were not for me.